Sometimes things don’t work out the way you expect them to, and sometimes they work out better. For whatever reason though, I still examine things that don’t turn out the way I expected in order to understand why and if I can make things better for the future. That being said, sometimes it’s just not your fault and things are better off not working out.
Upon a recent attempt to invest time from my life in someone else, I have discovered that, the more I tried to put in, the less I actually wanted to upon discovery of the truth of the matter. As much as I have to say, I will not go into much except to say that, in this case, I feel as though I am better off without.
Further thought goes to say that, as much of an open person as I am about my life and myself, I feel as though less than half a dozen people truly understand me, and, even of those half a dozen people, only two of three truly know me and all that I stand for. If you are one of those few, feel privileged. If you are not, don’t feel bad. I could truly open up to anyone.
Sometimes, I wonder how much I would let go of if I had a large bottle of alcohol and a complete stranger’s ear. Then I could say whatever I wanted, and it would not matter. Then again, sometime the world is my best friend and a somewhat familiar stranger that I’ve never known. I know this may seem somewhat cryptic, but I also believe that there are people that know exactly what I mean. If you do, then kudos to you, because that means you are great for allowing others to come before you.
Anyway, I am always open to talk about my life, and I am certainly looking forward to the future. I see great possibilities on the horizon, and the possibilities put a smile on my face and touch me in ways that make me feel like improvement is on its way. Through all the troubles and joys, life is good, and I will always be positive. I can’t help it. If you knew me, you would know this, and maybe you know this without knowing me. Either way, I will always be good, and I will always keep trying to make things better than they were the day before. Until next time…
I have recently been talking to an amazing woman who has made me begin to truly think about my life and my relationships. It is true and highly noticeable to anyone that knows me that I am truly an always on the go type of person, and it has been a long time since I have spent more time examining rather than acting. However, tonight, even though I did not even see her today, I have thought about a lot of things regarding past relationships and my life as well. I have have experienced a wide range of feelings towards others and feelings towards me. I have felt the greatest love I believe to be possible and had some amazing experiences. Then, I have also been hurt, lied to, cheated on, ignored, used, and even physically abused, but I still remain happy. I still try, and I will continue to try. I remain trusting, open, romantic, and a gentleman. In fact, I have even gained a new realization in this when I was informed that I am a Prince Charming. Unfortunately, that does have the draw back of being a little overwhelming as I was also told that this is something that women are not used to. Still, I can’t help being who I am.
Now though, I have taken my self examination one step further and realized that I do need to change, but I don’t need to change who I am. I need to change how I live. Over the past few years, I have been working to change my life for the better. However, I still need to do more, and now I am incredibly inspired to improve my way of living so that I may truly have greatness in my life.
I also have an opportunity to start something new which is not easy for someone my age who has had the sort of past I have. However, I have never been married, and I have no children, so I feel as though I am available to enter into each new relationship with a fresh outlook. In this case, it is nice as well that she is coming from the same place.
Overall, every relationship I have had has been different from each other relationship I have been through, so I don’t know what to expect. However, I can say that I am hopeful, and I certainly look forward to the future as well as any time I get to spend with her. I am also looking forward to further updates as things progress. So, until next time…
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