After my most recent post, I determined that I was not updating this blog near often enough. I suppose, if I am to keep up with it, I really want to focus more to do so. Sometimes, it just hard to figure out where to start when you are already in the middle. I guess, since I don’t have a lot going on today, I could focus more on some general things.
My life has been full of ups and downs lately. It seems that I keep coming up with trade offs in my life as though some sort of strange karma were affecting me. Unfortunately, while I am still working on bettering myself, I feel as though I leave a great many things behind, and this does make me feel as though I am losing a part of myself. I am not sure how else to become the person I want to be though. I have never been one to hide from telling people about myself either. However, it is still difficult to open my heart and emotions to change. I often think of myself as an open book. When asked questions, I answer honestly. Although, I must admit that there are emotions that do not always come out in my statements. To be more metaphorical, that book has a lot of filled space in between each line of every paragraph, and, even though I am always optimistic, there are feelings inside of me that very few people will ever know about without having a serious conversation.
This isn’t all meant to say that I am some strange hurting person. So, I will move on to a question that I will ask myself. Am I capable of being happy and loving? Of course. I have been in relationships where I have felt a great deal of love and caring. I am also very caring of my friends and have often gone out of my way to help people when I knew that they needed help. My reasoning for this is simply that I want them to be happy. I am also also always optimistic, and I believe that something good can come out of practically anything. I see the lighter side of life and enjoy smiles and laughter. Of course, my sense of humor can sometimes be a little dry and off, but it’s the idea of getting someone to laugh or even look at something in a way that they never may have otherwise that is really the point. I believe in having fun and doing things to be happy.
I know I’ve gone on a little bit of an emotional rant here. However, this is my blog, and I want it to truly show me. Also, I don’t normally make it a point of sharing this site for the most part, so chances are most of you (meaning the people in my life that will most likely never find this if they don’t think to look) will never read this anyway. If you are reading this though, and you feel like asking any questions or making any comments, feel free to in the box below (requires Facebook login) or just give me a call. That’s always a friendly thing.
As you can see from the title of this blog entry, I have received a promotion at my job to the position of Security Shift Lead. This starts me off into the management team, and I now have seven people who are on my team. I am looking forward to working with the people and helping them to improve as well as helping the department to improve. Of course, having the extra access, no quota, and being on salary are kind of nice as well.
For the new position, I have been training all week, and I start my new schedule on Monday. Instead of working my previous Wednesday through Sunday, 3 AM till noon schedule, I will be moving to Monday through Friday, 5 PM till 2 AM. This will be awesome as I will now be able to get more of a regular sleep schedule.
For part two of the blog title, I am taking my first real weekend to visit with my Brother, Sister-in-law, and niece. It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to do this, but I am hoping, with my new schedule, that I will be able to do so much more often. Of course, Labor day weekend means there are a lot of people going all over the place on the roads. However, I was able to make the trip without issue. The only drawback so far is that I am unable to catch the University of Houston home opener game since my brother does not have a subscription which includes the channel on which the game is being broadcasted. So, I am stuck watching University of Texas.
Well, not much more to put for now. However, I do want to try to make updates more often, so I figured I’d throw one in here. Until next time…
Sometimes things don’t work out the way you expect them to, and sometimes they work out better. For whatever reason though, I still examine things that don’t turn out the way I expected in order to understand why and if I can make things better for the future. That being said, sometimes it’s just not your fault and things are better off not working out.
Upon a recent attempt to invest time from my life in someone else, I have discovered that, the more I tried to put in, the less I actually wanted to upon discovery of the truth of the matter. As much as I have to say, I will not go into much except to say that, in this case, I feel as though I am better off without.
Further thought goes to say that, as much of an open person as I am about my life and myself, I feel as though less than half a dozen people truly understand me, and, even of those half a dozen people, only two of three truly know me and all that I stand for. If you are one of those few, feel privileged. If you are not, don’t feel bad. I could truly open up to anyone.
Sometimes, I wonder how much I would let go of if I had a large bottle of alcohol and a complete stranger’s ear. Then I could say whatever I wanted, and it would not matter. Then again, sometime the world is my best friend and a somewhat familiar stranger that I’ve never known. I know this may seem somewhat cryptic, but I also believe that there are people that know exactly what I mean. If you do, then kudos to you, because that means you are great for allowing others to come before you.
Anyway, I am always open to talk about my life, and I am certainly looking forward to the future. I see great possibilities on the horizon, and the possibilities put a smile on my face and touch me in ways that make me feel like improvement is on its way. Through all the troubles and joys, life is good, and I will always be positive. I can’t help it. If you knew me, you would know this, and maybe you know this without knowing me. Either way, I will always be good, and I will always keep trying to make things better than they were the day before. Until next time…
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