I have recently been talking to an amazing woman who has made me begin to truly think about my life and my relationships. It is true and highly noticeable to anyone that knows me that I am truly an always on the go type of person, and it has been a long time since I have spent more time examining rather than acting. However, tonight, even though I did not even see her today, I have thought about a lot of things regarding past relationships and my life as well. I have have experienced a wide range of feelings towards others and feelings towards me. I have felt the greatest love I believe to be possible and had some amazing experiences. Then, I have also been hurt, lied to, cheated on, ignored, used, and even physically abused, but I still remain happy. I still try, and I will continue to try. I remain trusting, open, romantic, and a gentleman. In fact, I have even gained a new realization in this when I was informed that I am a Prince Charming. Unfortunately, that does have the draw back of being a little overwhelming as I was also told that this is something that women are not used to. Still, I can’t help being who I am.
Now though, I have taken my self examination one step further and realized that I do need to change, but I don’t need to change who I am. I need to change how I live. Over the past few years, I have been working to change my life for the better. However, I still need to do more, and now I am incredibly inspired to improve my way of living so that I may truly have greatness in my life.
I also have an opportunity to start something new which is not easy for someone my age who has had the sort of past I have. However, I have never been married, and I have no children, so I feel as though I am available to enter into each new relationship with a fresh outlook. In this case, it is nice as well that she is coming from the same place.
Overall, every relationship I have had has been different from each other relationship I have been through, so I don’t know what to expect. However, I can say that I am hopeful, and I certainly look forward to the future as well as any time I get to spend with her. I am also looking forward to further updates as things progress. So, until next time…
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